i'd say.
thank you bestfriend for late night chats.
i miss you many much.

and i'm just not in the best of moods.
cause people just dont know how to let me sleep.
like seriously.

i'm suffering withdrawal symptoms of not smoking.
since monday.
almost bought cigarettes yesterday.
gosh.

i shouldn't have messaged you la.
cause now i keep having the urge to message you.
things we going so fine.
with me trying so bloody hard not to message you.
or hear you voice.


i shouldn't love you.
but i want to.
i just can't turn away.
i shouldn't see you.
but i can't move.
i can't look away.
and i dont know.
how to be fine when i'm not.
cause i don't know.
how to make the feeling stop.
just so you know.
this feelings taking control of me.
and i can't help it.
i won't sit around and let her win now.
thought you should know.
i tried my best to let go of you.
but i dont want to.
i gotta say it all before i go
just so you know.
its getting hard to,
be around you.
there's so much i can't say.
do you want me to have to feelings?
and look the other way.
this emptiness is killing me.
i'm wondering why i've waited so long.
looking back i realised.
it was always there just never spoken.
i'm waiting here.